I never was fully convinced beyond the basic concept of Karma.
I've never been a vindictive person... sure I've been angry and wanted bad things to happen to people that have wronged me. But never did I think if I 'turned the other cheek' and went on my merry way, would Karma deal them with a hand that was in direct confrontation with what they feared or were unable to handle themselves.
People say " God doesn't give you what you can't handle "
Now anyone that knows me knows, I don't necessary subscribe to that theory.
In this case, after being with Brian for 2 years, knowing he had no interest in children. Knowing he was very confused about his interest in Crossdressing and being used by men. And thinking I could change him and we'd be together forever... was a precursor for my Karmic eventuality.
Once I realised that he wouldn't change, that anything I encouraged or discouraged would just amplify his interests... I got lazy...
Eventually when he broke up with me in July, I could have unwrapped a very bitter disclosure about his interests to his friend and family who would be mortified. Did I want to? Yes. Did I ? No, counting on Karma to find a moment in his life to hand him something that would balance the bad he dealt me.
My friend M, formerly a co worker, informed me that her cousin was with a guy, named Brian, who was from Rockford, who installed dog fences... liked to hunt and fish, last name is the same and was pregnant.
Just goes to show you, you don't have to fuck someone over when they do wrong to you... it happens naturally...
I'm so giddy it's terrible... but it looks like being good isn't all that bad... :)